Tuesday, March 27, 2001

Well, I am in Sydney, after one of the strangest days of my whole life. I have never felt so much love (and sadness) in such as small space of time in my whole life. It was an experience! I guess I knew it was coming but because it hadn't set in (and still hasn't really) I almost didn't even know why I was crying. Or why everyone else was, but I knew I felt like crying and so I did. And then it was all over and I was in the plane trying to make friends and be funny and draw attention to myself. It was like a completely different universe! And we were all trying to convince ourselves we were going to be okay even though we weren't even sure why we wouldn't be or what we were up for...
Anyway enough of that what I really mean is I don't know what the frink I am doing! But I also know that I am not stagnating! I am moving and feeling and being and breathing and looking and learning and... living.
So I think it will all be worthwhile. No, I know it will all be worthwhile.
After we got off the plane we went to the hotel (which isn't too bad actually) and I was allocated to a room with a girl who wears demim jeans with "boys suck" written on her back pocket. Needless to say I attempted not to rub the squillion page love letter from Sam in her face!
We then went to more lectures on exactly how rotten we will feel when culture shock sets in- and exactly how we must behave whilst away. I fell asleep and jumped awake about 10 times and people were laughing but it wasn't my fault I was sooo tired. Then we went out to dinner and now I am going out for a walk along the streets of Sydney. It reminds me of Vancouver. It's lovely here...
I am falling asleep I need some air. But I love all of you and it was fantastic to see so many of you this morning. You mean the world to me.
posted by Claire English @ 8:42 PM

Sunday, March 25, 2001

Hello Everybody, this is my basically going to be my journal of sorts whilst I am away. So expect the usual rediculously emotional, hyped up, over reacting Claire to shine through 100%...
I am going to write letters as well ofcourse, but this way you all get the general gist of how I am feeling!
I leave on a 6:45am aeroplane this Tuesday the 27th March. To be frank I am still not really feeling anything yet. I think about 700 people have asked me if I'm excited yet, but I think I'm just numb. Sam and Nell have both decided I just shouldn't go, but I know they don't mean it... We'll see how I go I guess...
posted by Claire English @ 5:38 PM